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Boy Did I Screw Myself Over...

 School has been a challenge for me.  My first two years I struggled with depression and as a result got some terrible grades.  Then I went to another school, and had no idea what I wanted to do.  In addition to that I had just been diagnosed with ADHD and had no idea what that meant.  Then I got sick and had to get my gallbladder taken out.  For a year after that I had constant stomach problems.  Plus my ADHD and depression issues.  I changed my major a couple times.

I've retaken so many classes in an attempt to get a higher GPA, the financial aid nazis have cut off my access to any federal funding regardless of what my current grades are.  So now, after years of free rent and board, I'm being slowly smothered to death here and need to get out, but then I have absolutely no way to pay for school... that is if I can find any that will actually take me.  Although my GPA isn't terrible, it's not good enough for any of the nursing programs out there.  I'll have to take over some of my classes, which I am unable to pay for.

I don't know what to do.  It's extremely frustrating.  And I'm hating myself for screwing things up so badly.  And what's worse is I really was trying, and I got terrible grades.  Then this last semester I take one of the harder classes in the biology department and I pass ALL of my classes with a 4.0.  WTF?!

At this point I'm really just venting.  I honestly don't know where to go from here.

That is all.

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Hmm.... Need to travel more.  I really want to go to South America and check out the Andes.

I just stole your meme!

- Bold all of the following TV shows which you've ever seen 3 or more episodes of in your lifetime.
- Italicise a show if you're positive you've seen every episode of it.
- If you want, add up to 3 additional shows (keep the list in alphabetical order), but you must delete one show for each one that you add.

7th Heaven
Aeon Flux
Alfred Hitchcock Presents
Alias Smith and Jones
Arrested Development
Babylon 5
Babylon 5: Crusade
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)

Battlestar Galactica
Beavis & Butthead
Beverly Hills 90210
Big Bang Theory

Blue Bloods
Bosom Buddies
Boy Meets World
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Burn Notice
Chappelle's Show
Charlie's Angels
Chicago Hope

Commander in Chief
Criminal Minds
Crossing Jordan
CSI: Miami
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Danny Phantom
Dark Angel

Dark Skies
DaVinci's Inquest
Dawson's Creek
Dead Like Me
Deadliest Catch
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dharma & Greg
Different Strokes

Doctor Who
Drake & Josh
Due South
Everybody Loves Raymond
Facts of Life
Family Guy
Family Ties

Fawlty Towers
Forever Knight

Get Smart
Ghost Hunters
Ghost Hunters International

Gilligan's Island
Gilmore Girls
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Grey's Anatomy
Growing Pains

Happy Days
Hawaii Five-0
Hawaii Five-0(reboot)
Hell's Kitchen
Hogan's Heroes
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Street
How I Met Your Mother
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy

Kung Fu
Kung Fu: The Legend Continues
LA Law
Laverne and Shirley
Law & Order
Law & Order: SVU

Little House on the Prairie
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost in Space

Magnum P.I.
Malcolm in the Middle
Married... With Children

Melrose Place
Miami Vice
Mike and Molly
Mission: Impossible
Mod Squad
Mork & Mindy

Murphy Brown
My So-Called Life
My Three Sons
Northern Exposure
One Tree Hill
Power Rangers
Prison Break
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)
Reasonable Doubts
Red Dwarf
Remington Steele
Rescue Me

Road Rules
Saved by the Bell

Sex and the City
Silk Stalkings
Six Feet Under
Small Wonder
So Weird
Sons of Anarchy
South Park
Spongebob Squarepants
Square Pegs
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise

Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1

Starsky & Hutch
Teen Titans
That 70's Show
That's So Raven

The 4400
The Addams Family
The Amazing Race
The Andy Griffith Show

The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Brady Bunch

The Commish
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show

The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Dukes of Hazard
The Equalizer
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air

The Good Wife
The Golden Girls
The Honeymooners
The Jeffersons
The Jetsons
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Magnificent Seven
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Monkees
The Munsters

The Office (US)
The Pretender
The Real World
The Sentinel
The Shield
The Simpsons
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
The Twilight Zone
The Vicar of Dibley

The Waltons
The West Wing
The Wonder Years
The X-Files

Third Watch
Three's Company
Twin Peaks
Twitch City
Veronica Mars
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)
Will and Grace

WOW... I've watched a LOT of TV.
In 2011, sarahzilla resolves to...
Get back in contact with some old computers.
Go to the old movies every month.
Become a better supernatural.
Backup my fanfiction regularly.
Go drawing three times a week.
Connect with my inner psych.
Get your own New Year's Resolutions:

Let the games begin!

 So I was moaning about how I never meet any nice guys when it hit me, the reason I'm not finding them is because I haven't been getting out there and looking.  Duh.  Sometimes it takes me a while to finally catch on.

Anyways, being the nerd that I am I signed up for a couple free dating services.  Right now it's been a couple days and I've gotten a lot of creeps, a lot of guys that have probably never left their mom's basements, and one or two interesting people.

We'll see how this goes.  I'll keep everyone updated.

Right now there's one guy that sounds interesting.  He gets extra points for asking me about star wars right off the bat.

Writer's Block: Must see TV

If you were a TV producer, what would be the premise of your first TV series, and who would star in it?

Well there would be a lot to be considered, financial success, the network it would work on, etc...  I know a lot of those cop shows do really well, but there's also a lot of supernatural themed shows that are popping up too.  But then they are starting to be overdone quite a bit.  So maybe a spin on them might be a good idea.

My idea:  A CIA operative (or intelligence contractor) witnesses something extremely strange while on a mission.  He finds out the CIA never discontinued their secret programs such as STARGATE, or MKULTRA or project ARTICHOKE, and the covert intelligence world has mastered things like mind control, psychic phenomena and other things.  I don't want this to be too X-Files or Fringe like, where a team goes from place to place investigating strange cases.  I think have it more 24 style or something like that.  Where he is trying to keep the government from knowing that he's discovered what is going on, and while doing this he's trying to figure out some kind of nefarious Manchurian Candidate type plot and stop it.  Maybe the President has been mind-controlled or something.  And he does this all while doing his regular job.

As for actors, I don't know who the main character would be, but it would have to be a guy in his mid or late 30's (a rough experianced agent), with a lot of character.  He needs to be funny, but also pull action hero off well.  Jeffrey Donovan is perfect, but he already plays a spy.  Other actors I would like to see are Oded Fehr, Kyle Chandler, Brent Spiner (He plays mad scientist soooooo well), Colm Feore, Jim Beaver, Nelsan Ellisand there's a few others that I can't remember their names or think of them right now.  Actresses I'd like to see on it would be Sharon Gless, Rutina Wesley, Tricia Helfer... and for the life of me my brain just froze.  But I think some older proven actors would be great on this show.  I also think there needs to be a smattering of younger actors that play more minor parts, but then maybe get recurring roles that will evolve over time.  One of my biggest problems with a lot of shows is they have a very young character play some kind of brilliant prodigy or have a very important role.  When in reality it takes time to work to get to that level and I want to show that.

Wow, I've put a lot of thought into this.  I think it might be a good idea for something!  Maybe I need to develop this some more.

Original Fiction... What?!

I've had an idea bouncing around my head for a while now. Today I felt like it needed to get out. So I wrote this scene that triggered the development of this idea. I do plan on developing this idea more, and this scene is the start of it all, but I don't think I'll post more here for now. I did some basic proof reading, but other than that all mistakes are my poor attempt at my native language.

Hope you enjoy!

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Sewing time!!!

 So my cousin is getting married in June.  I've decided to make myself a dress.  Because I always want to be different, and I'm known for taking on too much I've decided to try a 1950's style sun dress.  I found a beautiful linen with a purple background and a large white floral pattern on the foreground.  It's going to have a full circle skirt that will come to below my knees and a fitted top with either a halter style strap or regular shoulder straps.

Then I'm going to make an authentic 1950's petticoat as seen here: Alice Lon's Petticoats

I've already bought the shoes and I'm just waiting for them to come.  God bless Zappos.com  

Now I've just got to figure out what to do about jewelry and my hair.   Oh, and I still gotta make the damn dress ;)



I would like to start this entry by saying, assbutt!!!  Only Castiel could come up with such an insult.

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